My Intuition’s Journey During Healing
Everyone’s trauma looks different and the healing process is just as unique. One of the main issues I faced during my healing process was clouded intuition. My judgment was solely based on bottled up emotions and a false hope that it’s okay to be trusting of everyone at the beginning or jumping to another extreme of being scared of them.
It’s very difficult to express what clouded intuition feels like internally and physically. It’s a mix of paranoia and false hope that when you’re not being too paranoid that you can trust someone else completely. It’s very difficult to gauge who to trust, questioning your decisions constantly, and being unable to make a proper decision. Emotional exhaustion is the easiest way to describe it.Physically, you get so exhausted from all this “trickery” all you want to do is sleep. It is a combination of consistent exhaustion from the reoccurring panic you feel in your heart (that feeling when you wake up from a nightmare or adrenaline from running late). Imagine feeling this on a regular basis. You would always feel burnt out and alone.
When you’re at, what I like to call, “the transformative” part of your healing, you don’t feel this need to be stuck in a decision based on panic. It’s this beautiful moment where you feel free.
This freedom that you have been yearning so long for is here. You feel energetic again and come to the realization that the hardest part of your healing and life are over.
There will be bumps in your journey but you will be free enough to make proper decisions based on the hardship you faced and the lessons you learned from them. Your past does not control you anymore. You feel present more than ever!
Once you make your first decision at this stage, your intuition is calling you to help you make the right choice. It isn’t at the stage where it was trying to protect you from the world, the evil, and the trauma anymore. You feel as though you are re-born again and are on your individual path to success. Your intuition is your partner, best friend, and your everything.
